06 April 2012

CHANGES

No more long, luxurious baths...no more slow, pleasurable meals...no more long, uninterrupted hours on the net or t.v...no more late night outs...no more long hours of peaceful sleep...no more marathon book readings...no more going out with friends...no more running around and wasting time...

No more extra small shirts...no more small purses...no more walking in the rain and not caring...no more time to be alone...

No more of the old me...

All because of one thing...or should I say, one small guy...MAX!

But I'm not complaining! I love the changes.

I love waking up in the morning hearing him cry for his milk...I love seeing him smile for no apparent reason or giggle out of the blue. I could stay all night to watch him sleep. I love the feel of him in my arms...I love kissing his cheeks...holding his small hands. I love talking to him even if he's making faces while I explain to him some of life's lessons. I love reading to him...coz he surely would fall asleep after. I love seeing him and his dad, he seemed so small compared to him and so fragile. I love watching him...every second, if I could...coz someday he's gonna grow older and everything will change again...

But for now he's my world and I'm his...and that's more than enough.

Dear Lord,

I thank you for all the changes in my life...for all the good things that came my way. Sometimes, I feel overwhelmed by those changes, often times I still stumble, trying to find my way but you and your angels are always there to pick me up. Sometimes I still get distracted but you're always there to remind me of the gifts that I have right now...and I'm glad.

Please continue to bless us and watch over us everyday of our lives. I love you...I always do...

~nova



Dear Max,

I love you...even before you were born. Sometimes I still can't believe that you came out from me and yet you're so different, so unique. Sometimes I still feel so inadequate...so unworthy. I don't know if I ever will be the best mom for you...but I'll do my best...

I hope you'll grow up happy. I hope life will be good to you and take care of you. And when you grow up, remember to NEVER BE AFRAID TO LOVE...AND BE LOVED coz life is primarily about loving and being loved...everything else is secondary.

Don't be afraid to dream...to hope. Believe in the goodness of the Universe and God's unconditional love. I will always be here for you. I love you.


~mommy